I don’t mind working. Don’t get me wrong.\u00a0 It is something I have done since I was fifteen.\u00a0 I’m just damn tired.\u00a0 That’s all.<\/p>\n
It’s almost midnight, friday night.\u00a0 I just got home from work.\u00a0 The house is quiet – everyone asleep but the dog and cat.\u00a0 It would be nice to come home and visit with someone but, I can’t blame them.\u00a0 I would have gone to bed hours ago, too, had I been home and able.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I find myself stuck in a rut.\u00a0 I know I don’t want to do this forever – or at all, for that matter.\u00a0 I am desperate to start something that I will be happy and proud to do for many years.\u00a0 Does that exist?\u00a0 Or will I do things I moderately enjoy for a few years and eventually just give up trying to find that one thing that makes me feel like my work is worth investing my soul in?\u00a0 I know for a fact that working in a restaurant four nights a week is not what makes me sleep well at night.\u00a0 I wake up every morning feeling as if I have wasted so much precious time – time I could be writing or painting or starting graduate school or making love to my husband.\u00a0 It is all for naught.\u00a0 Sure.\u00a0 It pays some bills.\u00a0 Yes.\u00a0 That is absolutely necessary.\u00a0 I just want to feel fulfilled.\u00a0 Daily.\u00a0 Or at least every other day.\u00a0 I’d take that. Is that unrealistic?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I don’t mind working. Don’t get me wrong.\u00a0 It is something I have done since I was fifteen.\u00a0 I’m just damn tired.\u00a0 That’s all. It’s almost midnight, friday night.\u00a0 I just got home from…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-468","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-lifestyles"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/468","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=468"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/468\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=468"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=468"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.familyresource.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=468"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}